My friend and my king

In my most lowest moment of my life, when all things just turned upside down and nothing seems to go well and tiredness just seems to even make things worse, I needed a friend.
That point wasn't too far back, and it was my worse moment so far, where arguments and fights with a friend just never seem to end. So, out of desperation, I cried out to God and initially, I cried out to Him using the word "God" or "Father"
After a while, He place a hint in my heart to call His name instead. And His name is "Yahweh". It simply means in Hebrew, "I am"
His name, for some reason, makes me feel closer to Him and crying out to Him, using His name, somehow resonate within my soul, knowing He is near. From there, words came forth and it became a song;

El-Shaddai
Elohim
Matchless king
Yahweh

El-Shaddai
Elohim
Faithful One
Yahweh

We cry to You, Yahweh
We cry to You, Yahweh
We cry to You, oh Lord

That was the first song that came forth out of my desperate moment. And after long prayers and all, for some reasons, things didn't work out as how I thought it would. But in my stillness, God whisper to me, saying He is always on my side, even in the middle of the night. From there, a song came forth;

In the times of confusion
chaos and trial
In the times of triumphant
rejoicing and praise
You are still sovereign in every season
You are still Holy on high

When I cry, You cry with me
When I laugh, You laugh with me
When I mourn, You're there for me
You hold me close to Your heart
You are my friend and my king
(You are my friend and my king)

In the nights of sorrow
mourning and grief
In the morning of sunrise
deliverance and hope
You are my Father
and I am Your child
You are my strength and my shield

Look to You, Adonai
Look to You, El-Shaddai
I will put faith in You, in every season

We have this understanding that God is the king on the throne, but there are times where we need Him to be more than just a king; we need a friend and He is all that. A shoulder to cry and lean on, someone to call in the dead of the night, someone to tell secrets to and all.. He is all that.