Unlike me...

My friend and my king

2010-04-28T02:01:00.000-07:00

In my most lowest moment of my life, when all things just turned upside down and nothing seems to go well and tiredness just seems to even make things worse, I needed a friend.
That point wasn't too far back, and it was my worse moment so far, where arguments and fights with a friend just never seem to end. So, out of desperation, I cried out to God and initially, I cried out to Him using the word "God" or "Father"
After a while, He place a hint in my heart to call His name instead. And His name is "Yahweh". It simply means in Hebrew, "I am"
His name, for some reason, makes me feel closer to Him and crying out to Him, using His name, somehow resonate within my soul, knowing He is near. From there, words came forth and it became a song;

El-Shaddai
Elohim
Matchless king
Yahweh

El-Shaddai
Elohim
Faithful One
Yahweh

We cry to You, Yahweh
We cry to You, Yahweh
We cry to You, oh Lord

That was the first song that came forth out of my desperate moment. And after long prayers and all, for some reasons, things didn't work out as how I thought it would. But in my stillness, God whisper to me, saying He is always on my side, even in the middle of the night. From there, a song came forth;

In the times of confusion
chaos and trial
In the times of triumphant
rejoicing and praise
You are still sovereign in every season
You are still Holy on high

When I cry, You cry with me
When I laugh, You laugh with me
When I mourn, You're there for me
You hold me close to Your heart
You are my friend and my king
(You are my friend and my king)

In the nights of sorrow
mourning and grief
In the morning of sunrise
deliverance and hope
You are my Father
and I am Your child
You are my strength and my shield

Look to You, Adonai
Look to You, El-Shaddai
I will put faith in You, in every season

We have this understanding that God is the king on the throne, but there are times where we need Him to be more than just a king; we need a friend and He is all that. A shoulder to cry and lean on, someone to call in the dead of the night, someone to tell secrets to and all.. He is all that.

Fire fall, Lion roar

2010-04-28T01:47:00.000-07:00

One of the few revelation that was given to me, was the fact that, God was moving around the people in this nation in a very strong way. Especially young people. I look at my live and what a mess it was, ranging from family to friends to personal issues, but mainly, my identity. I realised I was at a constant battle with my identitfy and what or who defines me. But God, who is gracious, has been restoring all of that, pieces by pieces. I used to have this idea that Christ died, so that we may have salvation. What a wrong idea.
He did way way more than that. He died, so we may have the broken pieces in our lives restored. He didnt just redeem us, but the broken pieces as well, so He may fix it and restore it.
Here I am, was given words for songs that I never sang before or heard before. The words are as such;

This is our battle cry
This is our anthem of praise
This is our heart's desire
Lord, we give You our praise

Lord, You are the One for me and
I'm found in You and
forever You will reign
Fire fall, Lion roar

Broken hearts and broken lives be healed
in Your name
Broken hearts and broken lives be healed
in Your name

We Your generation will rise up
for Your name
We will shout Your battle cry
today

I know that this is a battle cry sort of song, but was wondering why God place the phrase "broken hearts and broken lives will be healed in Your name" and then, I realised this. God is healing this generation of their brokeness in heart and lives so we may rise up to take our place and claim this nation back.
The phrase "Fire fall, Lion roar" came about during free-worship moments when those phrases came about. It was a revelation that shows of the Holy Spirit reigning over the nation with such power and authority and Christ will co-heir with us, to roar so loudly, that it just porclaims the nation to the Father.

Feel hungry.. Feel really hungry...

2010-02-01T21:06:00.000-08:00

A pastor once said this, "If you dont feel like reading the Word, don't feel guilty, but you should feel hungry. Because You know there's is something wrong with you and therefore, feel hungry, not guilty.
"If you don't feel like singing praises to God, or serving in His ministry, don't feel guilty, but you should feel hungry, because again, you know there is something wrong with you.. Therefore, feel hungry.. Seek Him, fix your eyes on the cross and Jesus.. Why? Because the grace is only from Him and not us. From Saving Grace to serving Grace.."

Worship...

2010-02-01T20:55:00.000-08:00

I was at EPCC worship session, where I joined the congregation in a time of worship and I was asking God, what is different about these people compared to GBC worship.. I mean, these people are spirit filled and I see children lifting up their hands in pure adoration to God...

Then, God revealed two things to me.. The first being is that we always pray that God will come to fill our hearts and lead us during worship.. But truly, how often do we allow His spirit to lead us or allow His spirit to move through us?
God was rebuking me, saying why do we always pray for His spirit and presence to lead, only to have us resisting His spirit and doing it our own ways..

The second thing God revealed to me was, there is no such thing as second class Christian or second class people in His eyes.. I repeat this.. There is NO SUCH THING AS SECOND CLASS CHRISTIAN IN HIS EYES...

We always fix our eyes on the worship leaders during worship and we in turn fear what would the pastor or deacon would say if the worship isn't as good as what we think it would be.. Then God asked me, why fear them? Why give them such authority? Why give them this status that we will fear them? Why do we fear them? The only person we are to truly fear in awe is Him and Him alone.

God continue to speak, that we are called into His ministry, therefore, you are given HIS DIVINE ANOINTING.. We are not going to do His works alone, but We are given His anointing and His blessings.. So why fear and fear what others would say?

Which drives back the point of Saul who become Paul.. This man, encountered God on his way to Damascus, and He began to speak boldy of God and Jesus and His words. The same applies to us.. Are we to be afraid and fear others while doing His works? NO!

Like Paul, we are given that very same anointing and blessing from no other than God Himself..

Simon, the man who gave a personal invitation to Jesus...

2010-02-01T20:52:00.000-08:00

As Simon Peter invited Jesus into his home, his most personal space, so I to need to give Jesus access to all the areas of my life: even the most personal areas.

This came from the story of how Simon invited Jesus into his house to heal his mother who is sick that time.. Its a time of healing and Jesus doesn't just heal us in general or on the outside wounds, but rather in and out and every corner and nook and dark and dirty corner of our heart...

That's how Jesus wants to heal and renew us. As said in Romans 12, where the renewal of the spirit starts with the mind, our life is renew and healed through Jesus, if only we allow Him to do so.